Vid: Afraid (The Way We Love)

[secretlytodream]

Before you go and watch this, I highly recommend you reconsider it. Because, seriously? I made this video mostly while I was working on a wedding video. And this wedding thing made me vidding Savage Garden. Savage freaking Garden people. Can you imagine it? :D
So I needed something absolutely different to happily ever after to distract myself. I worked on this video longer than I usually do. And this is what came out of it.

DearigDaio sent me this song and asked me to vid it, because she wanted a nice video for a nice song. She obviously lied to me when she said I could make it better than her lol But I’m glad she did, because I really liked this song. So, this is for her ♥



Vidder: Loki
Title: Afraid (The Way We Love)
Song: Afraid
Artist: Sarah Fimm
Warnings: WINCEST , character’s death , spoilers for s4
Category: AU
Characters/Pairings: Dean/Sam
Summary: Trying to save his brother he didn’t notice how he became evil himself.
Length: 4:12
File Size: 54 MB
Links: YouTube | BVV | Download 54 MB

Lyrics:
I'd like to hold you close
Make you feel safe
Not so afraid of yourself
If we have to part, so it shall be
I'd like to help you suffer less
Not be so locked up in your thoughts
Afraid of love and all under the sun

I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play

I'd like to know you more,
Tell you you're fine
Even though you're not
When you worry so much
It makes me want to cry
Fragile like the leaves come fall
Red yellow gold, I love them all
I guess it's just the way we love

I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play

Here I am I don't wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
Here I am I don't wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
I've been dead and I wanna come out
Call my name cause I wanna come out
Here I am and I wanna come out
Null to the bone I don't wanna come out
I've been dead and I wanna come out
Call my name cause I wanna come out

I'll hide out in your space
Emptiness on my face
I'll be keeping you safe
When you're cold and alone
Til you come out and play



Bisou ♥

Comments

[trinipedia.livejournal.com]

first of all: I'LL NEVER EVEN THINK BEFORE I CLICK ON A VID OF YOURS.

secondarily: of cxourse she said that, you're one of the best vidders around, so <3

third: I love you and you rock more every single time. *in awe*
this is one of your most creepy vids, and it fits perfectly with the song, that's...guh.

so...clapping like crazy? *claps*

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

You stole the first comment again :P

And thaaaaanks ^_^

[tabaqui]

Oh, now, i liked that. I loved the desaturated palette, and the way you cut between images, just tiny snippets that wove together scenes that were totally episode apart into a very good whole.

Really, really liked it, all kind of grainy and dark. Sorry, my vid fb vocabulary isn't very good! I'm dl'ing the vid, as well.

Thanks!

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Yay! Glad you liked it, and especially coloring :) Thank you!

[sanann.livejournal.com]

wincest vid. YESSSSS! *downloads like crazy*

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Though it's not the happy one...:|

[fannywinchester.livejournal.com]

Whoa *-*
Amazing as usually. I really love it and the song fits with it so much!
It can be seen you worked on it a lot because of the dark effects and the other things.
Love it and downloading!!

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Yeah, those repeated effects were a pain in the ass haah There were too many of them and they all were the same lol

Glad you liked it! Thank you ^_^

[germanjj.livejournal.com]

holy sh** that's the winces vid you were talking about, right? It's amazing! I love the song and the slow,hot pace of it. God, I can't help myself but evil!Sam is so freaking hot!! ;P

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it is lol :P

And yes! evil!Sam is really hot haha

How's your story? You were talking about the sunday as a deadline, so...are you making it? :)

[lady-eilthana.livejournal.com]

Whoa. *___*

Evil!boys at their best. I especially liked the end...

And the song's really great. ♥

I'm honestly overwhelmed by all your vids. They're always perfect so she was totally right to ask you to make a vid out of that song.

*downloads*

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thank you so so much! I'm really glad you liked this video :)

[alexandra-kot.livejournal.com]

Локи, просто офигенное видео!!
спасибо за такую красоту..
=)

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Спасибо за...русский коммент? гыгы

[articia337.livejournal.com]

Wow, this is amazing! I love it.

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thank you! ^_^

[iheartrg.livejournal.com]

wow that was awesome vid!
love the song!!!

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[strangefantasy.livejournal.com]

Like I said in YT (chaosbrownie) it'S a awesome video! thanks for this :D

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the double comment hon! Glad you liked it :)

[yellowhorde.livejournal.com]

Wow, that was AWESOME!

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[proudens.livejournal.com]

Awesome Video!! Even im not so into winchest you made your videos amazing and now you getting me to Winchest LOVE!!

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

am I getting you into wincest? oO LOL I'm so powerful haha
Glad you liked it! Thank you so much :)

[superfire.livejournal.com]

Stoppppp itttttt.
You're making me look bad! xD

My favourite part is the ending with the forest manip. :)

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Shuddup and finish your video :P I already want to see it! \o/

Oh yeah, that part with the forest and The Scene *lol* is my fav too. Kinda liked how it turned out :)

[anaapenas.livejournal.com]

I saw it on YT but I was waiting to get the HQ version to give you a proper comment...but I've just realised that the only thing I can say after watching this vid for the 3th time is THANK YOU SO MUCH for making another evil!Sam/Dean vid, especially with this song. I'm a sucker for creepy/sexy vids :p

I can't remember seeing it anywhere, so I gotta ask you. From where did you get that first scene? when Dean is with blood in his mouth? Is it a manipulation?

Ohhh and I didn't know you work with wedding videos. I thought you were just a wedding photografer. Seems to be a nice job except for the tough parts like vidding Savage Garden lol. Hey but honestly what's the problem with SG? :p

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

haha, apparently, I'm a sucker for making such vids too lol
Glad you liked it! \o/

Hell, no, it wasn't a manip - that first scene. It's from a movie called "Devour". There's quite a few clips from that movie in this video. I wanted to start this video with bloody "Dean" and ended it with him, going to the dark, because this video is about DEAN, not Sam. It's Dean who tried to save his brother, who failed at it and who became dark and evil.

I actually do all kinds of jobs lol - I can be a photographer, I can shoot weddings (or any other event) on a video and then edit it. You know, when you know how to use some things and programs, there's a lot of possibilities for you :)

It's not always fun though, sometimes you really got tired of talking to people, you know? You do it how YOU think it's gonna be good, and they want something different, and sometimes you need to re-do some parts...>.<

Nah, nothing wrong with SG haha Actually I liked that clip I made in that wedding. But seriiously - it was waaaay too sweet and nice and I was bored, tired and angry and I wanted something fun. LoL

Obviously I have strange meaning of word "fun" xD

[fatedcinderella.livejournal.com]

You are amazing. This was incredible. We've had this discussion but bad boys are so much love! =D

[anaapenas.livejournal.com]

Your icon is awesome LOL. I still don't get why i like so much slash. Seriously my friends think I'm a freak sometimes and so do I :p

[kaczurda.livejournal.com]

Omg evil!boyss <333 Keep them coming XD

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Oh, be sure I will haha

[mangacat201.livejournal.com]

WOw... uhm. seriously that creeped me out and it also creeped under my skin and lodged itself there pretty damn hard. I mean, the texture of your clips and the extraordinary timing you have with your cuts (not to mention actually being able to deduce the story from just the vid, which is a damn fine feat in and of itself) it makes me envious (or it would if I have ANY aspirations to ever go into vid-art) but damn that was a powerful story. The whole of it made me forget the parts it came from even when they wedged themselves as a commentary in the back of my head, but it really didn't matter because it all just sucked you in. Boah, great.
Cat

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thanks a lot Cat! I'm glad you liked this vid. It's pretty disturbing, and I really don't know why there's always these kinds of ideas in my head lol

[letoist.livejournal.com]

Downloading for sure! It was amazing. :D

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thank you! ^_^

[winterevanesce.livejournal.com]

WOW!!! Damn that was good stuff!
<3 *favorites*

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

*giggles*
Glad you liked it, hon! ^_^

Lush and dark

[lynnmonster.livejournal.com]

I am extremely impressed!

I loved the grainy/dark visual effect, it made everything hang together really cohesively and gave a perfect overall feel to the vid (which matched the mood of the music).

I was also stunned by how well you selected and told a story primarily through extremely close shots -- it's like a tale told through facial expressions, and it works very, very well!

Even if on first viewing I didn't necessarily know the details of each and every nuance of the created storyline, I could see them all, and I'm sure rewatching will be very rewarding indeed.

Plus, it's absolutely gorgeous. *g*

Re: Lush and dark

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you liked my choice of close ups - this is something I'm always careful about, because for me good close up is a very important thing. I put a lot of work into this aspect of the video, so thank you for pointing it out :)

Thanks! And I'm really glad you liked this vid :)

[twivamp92.livejournal.com]

Good lord...
I'm like addicted to your vids xD
I don't even bother looking what they're about. When i see a post about a new vid of yours, I drop everything and go right to watch it.
and once again you did not dissapoint.
this was phenominal.
I just made a MALE friend of mine who Ive just recently gotten to watch spn (and who just doesnt understand wincest)watch the vid and even he loved it.

everything about it was perfect (1:10 when they both have quick shots of them evil was one of my favorite parts)
and the sex scenes. those were epic.
this was seriously Dark!Boys at its absolute best.
and the song was perfect as well x]

just..guh! *goes to watch again*

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Does it make me a druseller or something? haha :D

Woah, even your friend loved it? oO Geez am I really that cool? hahahaha Thank you! :)

And I'm SO glad you noticed this little thing on 1:10. I was thinking about it, if people will notice it :P

Thanks for such an awesome feedback! ^_^

[trillian276709.livejournal.com]

I'm amused that you made this whilst editing a wedding. HEE! This is amazingly put together. I loved the effects and the cuts you used and it fit the song perfectly. :) Brilliant.

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

haha, this is kinda the way I work lol Pretty strange way, I have to say...

Thank you! Glad you liked this vid :)

[jelost.livejournal.com]

Oh this is so amazing! I adore this! I especially love the chase sequence at the end, and the gunshot and Dean bleeding back into the shadows and it's just brilliant!

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Yay for chase scene! I kinda like it too, it turned out retty interesting and I really liked it.

And that clip (the last one in the video) from Devour is my favorite. It's pretty creepy and mysterious and I just couldn't not to put it there :) Glad you liked it! ^_^

[stwabewy.livejournal.com]

Hey there! I really like your videos. Just wanted to let you know there's a new forum called "Cardboard Reel Inventions" where you can get critique for your videos, find resources, get help with ideas for upcoming projects, enter challenges, post up a "gallery" and be promoted to different ranks, and lots more. It's like most graphics forums out there, but it's centered around fanvids instead. Check it out if you have the time! We'd love for you to join us :)

- CRI Staff
http://www.cardboard.ipbfree.com

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the invitation! :) Though I'm not sure if I'll become a member - I have way too many places to post now :|

[griva-x.livejournal.com]

Oh finally, you made another wincest vid. Cant wait to watch...and Im begging to upload to sendspace or megaupload. Ive tried to download from 4shared since last evening....

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

No need to beg hon :)
Here ya go
http://www.sendspace.com/file/rzimjg